bleh thursday

Kay so I must confess I ate a small pack of Pringles this morning. BAD CRISTINA! Ugh, I feel so mad at myself, it's like my brain has just given up on me. Last time I checked, I was still at 73 kgs., and it's like I'm actually working to get that number up instead of down. 

Why is this so hard? I see all these amazing girls that have dropped twice or more, and I can't seem to drop more than 1 or 2 kgs? This is getting ridiculous. 

But this is it. No more cheating, no more sneaking a taste of anything I'm not supposed to eat. Nada.  From now on, I am going to be incredibly strict with myself, and I am going to avoid ALL those fatty foods for three months. I'm setting the deadline to November 13th, in the hopes that having an actual deadline and not just an abstract goal will help me stay healthy. 

So mark your calendars people! NOVEMBER 13TH. Until that day, I am not allowed anywhere near cookies, chips, cake, soda, white bread, etc., so help me God. You are all witnesses here, ok? So you are allowed to shoot me if we happen to run into one another and I have a slice of pizza in my hand.

Seriously.

But anyway, I wanted to share with you all a picture of my work outfit today, completely inspired by Pinterest. Here's the original:

Ins't it cute?

I have been all over Pinterest from the moment I laid eyes on it. No but really, we're going steady y'all. It's the greatest website ever, and I've found the most awesome shit on, sometimes I stare at my screen for hours on end, wishing for this or that. Unfortunately, I am not loaded (not even close) so as far as clothes go, I have to work with what I have. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. When it doesn't, I usually hit the 'Hair & Beauty' category and attempt something new on my boring locks, and that can cheer me up. Some girls were born with magical, hair do-ing fingers, for realz. Buuuut this time, I found the above picture, and I knew I could recreate it with stuff I already own. 

Ta-da!

 Forgive the wrinkly skirt, but by the time I could snap a picture I had been sitting down for a looong time. Whatcha think? I think it is cute, but then again I could be completely blind to the fact that I look like a shriveled burrito. So be honest! Does it work? What would you have done differently?

in sickness and in health...?

Geez, it feels like forever since my last post. To be completely honest, I haven't really felt like posting. Or keeping in line with my diet for that matter. I know there is no excuse for stuffing my face with chocolate chip cookies, white bread and Burger King, but that's exactly what I did the past week. Sure, I didn't miss a single workout, but who was I trying to kid, after everything I had eaten the cardio at best kept me around the same weight. 

And why on earth would I do that, one might ask. Well, I went to the doctor two weeks ago, due to this constant headaches that just won't leave me alone. He told me I produce excess adrenaline, which could possibly explain the searing pain in my head, but that I needed to get an MRI just to be sure. After all, headaches could be a symptom of brain tumors or aneurysms, so we needed to be certain. So of course I spent all that week acting like an anxious, nervous little girl that couldn't get her hands on enough crap food. The anticipation was driving me crazy, and it still is. I had the MRI done on Saturday, but I won't know if there's anything seriously wrong with me until next week. Talk about suspense.

This week I'm trying really hard to stay away from temptations, but I've always struggled with my eating habits the most under severe stress and anxiety. And the fact that I may or may not have some giant foreign mass in my head is the MOTHER LOAD of all things stress-inducing. But, I have committed myself to changing my bad habits and eating properly cannot be dismissed under any circumstances. So I've forced myself to talk about this and post it for the world to see (bahaha yeah right...at least for my one or two readers to see) so the sheer peer pressure will make my cravings quit. So that everytime I want to take a bit of that delicious fudgy brownie, my mind will come back to this post and I'll steer clear. 

Hopefully that will be enough. Otherwise I'm going to have to resort to hand-slaps everytime I even consider eating something I shouldn't. Like a Pavlovian conditioning of sorts.

So on to brighter topics, yes? This is today's outfit and hair, the latter inspired by Pinterest. I've seen the bottom-up braided bun around a lot, and I decided to give it a try. Here's the original inspiration:

Looks harder than it actually is, trust me

At first, I had a hard time braiding with my head upside down, but once you get the hang of it, it's easy peasy!!! Plus, it gets your hair out of the way and has people oohing and aaahing at it all day, so it gets extra points in my book. This is my result:

Oh, and I'm going to take this time to shamelessly promote my Pinterest account: Cristina R. YOU SHOULD ALL FOLLOW ME.

Thank you, and that is all :)

falling off the bandwagon

Shameful puppy eyes 

This past week, and especially during the weekend, I have to admit I fell off the bandwagon. Not only did I stray off the path in terms of what I ate, but I also skipped my workout twice, and I only made up for one of the two missed sessions. 

So SHAME on me.

I guess this has happened to a lot of people, and I'm definitely not going to give up just because I had a bad week, but geez I feel like such a failure. I've only been at this whole blogging experience for a week and a half, and I've already done exactly what I was preaching you should avoid. Darn it. 

While there is no excuse for eating like crap and skipping out on my workout, I must say most of the fatty foods I had over the weekend can be traced to my emotional state. I crashed for the very first time on Saturday morning, and it was awful. I've only been driving for a couple of months, and had been feeling like Superwoman for the most part. Then this bastard had to ram his car into mine in the most stupid way possible, and completely throw me off guard. Thankfuly, it wasn't anything too serious, and neither my spine nor my darling car suffered any damage, but the entire thing made me run late for an extremely important meeting. 

I was so angry and upset over the whole thing, I ended up bursting into tears back home, and my roommate took me to a late brunch to try and cheer me up. Instead of ordering the ham and spinach omelette I should have, I ended up having Eggs Benedict. The orchestra of flavors swirling in my mouth could not make up for the guilt I felt as they took the empty plate away, and I ended up feeling even worse. That night I practically finished a bowl of popcorn all by myself, and Sunday was chicken-wing and greasy blue-cheese dip day. 

SO, all that nasty eating topped with my lack of exercise scared the hell out of me and I skipped my weekly weigh-in. BAD CRISTINA! Yesterday I panicked and avoided the scale like the plague, but after visiting a couple of my inspirational blogs (particularly Mama Laughlin's) and reading my older posts, I've garnered enough strength to face reality, and I'm going to weight myself before lunch. There's no better way to deal with the consequences of a bad week than to know exactly where I stand. I've also rescheduled Friday's workout, so today I'll do both Friday and Monday's sessions. 

I'll post an update later today. Hopefully, the scale won't be too bad and I can get back on track quickly. Sorry if I let you guys down :(